Ask HN: What stages of disillusionment have you been through in your life?

I'm 28 and feel like the last 8 years of my life have been a gradual disillusionment.

I used to want to be 'someone' but now that everyone is 'special', I just want to be ordinary.

I admire a few people in history from cultures I resonate with, I don't want to be any of them though.

I don't care for being rich or famous, just building something that solves a practical problem affecting a lot of people at a fair price.

I used to want to 'change the world' or even 'save it', then I realized that the Cosmos is much older and grander than I can imagine, that we can't stop the sun from shining or the earth from spinning, we can disrupt things a little bit for an epoch at most but not forever. It's actually a bit arrogant to think we are that powerful or important, it's liberating to realize how free a person can be when they really, really look at the Cosmic Calendar.

I could go into religion, politics, social movements, family structures, probably everything but I won't, these are all easy targets and most everyone has already heard enough about all these. Even science, as much as I love it, has it's limits while many of it's biggest 'celebrity scientists' are famous for their views than their work.

I may sound morbidly depressed or cynical but I feel very human and honest right now. Like a person who has just had enough, who just wants to be free.