Ask HN: WFH has tanked productivity and mental heath – think I might get fired

I have ADHD and I'm relatively introverted. In March I moved to NYC to start a job with a company that has grown explosively during the pandemic, has a great culture and checked one of my bucket list boxes of living in NYC.

Although I did pretty well and performed above average during most of the pandemic, the last few months have scared me.

My boss is starting to press me as to why I'm not moving tasks along fast enough or getting things done in a timely manner. Fortunately I've personally architect-ed some important infrastructure components so I'm safe in that regard. My boss has been very accommodating, he's open to letting people say when they've had a "bad" week and I've done alright so far.

However, November was bad. My depression came back hard for the first time since college. I've attempted to be disciplined and focus but even with ADHD meds nothing is really working. Obviously some people have it better, but right now I'm realizing New York is a huge waste of money, my salary isn't even that great and I'm worried if I get fired I'll have to go through another personal hell of 3-4 months of interviewing. Given how well I handled the pandemic / WFH prior I didn't think I'd break down like this. However, right now I just want to keep my job. I'm honestly more scared by the fact of my inability to control myself, improve at all or really feel in control of my life right now.

If anyone else is struggling feel free to reach out for my email.