What you learned after having kids that questioned the decision of having kids?

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I am looking for Male perspective on this issue because obviously I am man and we have whole different priorities in life. Not same world honestly like women.

What things you learned after having kids that you wish would have known before having kids and would have made you to change decision of having kids?

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Try to read/watch the news every day for some time.

Do you want to force someone to live on a planet where things happen which are a daily occurrence on ours?

What if I just don't read/watch the news every day?

"Bad things" have happened as a daily occurrence for all of history - it's only now that there's an echo chamber and attention economy for this kind of trauma porn.

All I'm trying to say is that "Do you want to force someone to live on a planet where things happen which are a daily occurrence on ours?" is a consideration that all of our ancestors had to consider, too.

So true. It's easy to think that our contemporary problems are somehow especially dire, but as a species our lives are incomparably better than any generation before.

If you were abount to be reincarnated and could pick a decade to be born, knowing that you would be born into a random family somewhere on earth, you'd be a fool to pick any decade in the past. Today, you'd have a ~10% chance of being born into extreme poverty. As recently as 1990, it was ~50%, while back in 1900 it would have been ~90%!

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Extreme_poverty

>"Do you want to force someone to live on a planet where things happen which are a daily occurrence on ours?" is a consideration that all of our ancestors had to consider, too.

Is it? Personally, I doubt that people of the past considered reproduction as optional. There are still places where abortion, or even contraception, are illegal.

Nor did their decision involve "planet-scale" factors. They either succeeded at raising kids, or failed. Normalization of antinatalism is a relatively recent phenomenon. (Even the spell-checker doesn't know the word!)

It's only in modernity that people have the access to information (skewed as it may be), and the freedom (limited as it may be) to make a decision (biased as it may be) about whether to have kids or not.

>What if I just don't read/watch the news every day?

That'll probably make you more informed, not less.

> Try to read/watch the news every day for some time.

Never ever do that. Healthy or sick it's just a bad idea ESPECIALLY right now. Put your mental health first and work on things you can actually affect.

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It will make you a better person. There's nothing easy about it.

You'll have less time for selfish things.

Your self control will be challenged as you try to maintain composure in many challenging situations. Some that involve diaper blowouts at 3am, the night before a big presentation.

You'll be forced to adapt as your lifestyle changes. Old friends without kids will invite you out less. You'll find new friends with kids. The practicality of things like minivans will become alluring.

You'll become more persuasive. If you can convince a 3 year old to eat broccoli, you can sell ice to eskimos.

Gotta wonder about all those parents that missed the "make you a better person" memo.
Right?!

“Make you less selfish”… excuse me?

"make you a better person" how incredibly arrogant,and I would argue having children is incredibly selfish. You are filling a need for yourself no-one else, there is nothing that couldn't be improved by less people on the planet.
If you think perpetuating the species is selfish, this conversation probably isn't for you.
There is a rather large difference between perpetuating the species at a sustainable level and “everyone who even remotely wants kids should have some.” If you can’t appreciate this difference, this thread probably isn’t for you.
Read the comment I responded to. It said nothing about sustainable levels:

> I would argue having children is incredibly selfish

Yes, read the comment you responded to. It said nothing about permanently dropping fertility rates to zero either. You made a straw man argument and I called you out on it.
That poster made the unqualified statement that having children is a selfish decision.

If there are at least some people for whom the decision is not selfish, then it's a false statement.

If there are no people for whom the decision is not selfish, then if every couple were to act selflessly, the human race would end in a single generation.

Bingo. Need proof? See other comments in this thread - “I can’t imagine how I lived before I had kids!”

Uh huh.

I don't think the poster necessarily said that nothing else in the world will make you a better person... I think it's impossible to deny that learning kindness, patience, humility, acceptance makes you a better person.

Is it the only way to get that experience? In theory no, in practice it's hard to recreate the sheer intensity of the experience of raising children in other parts of life.

Have you actually thought about this? Do the math, man. Society can’t function without quite a few young people and not so many old ones. I also would like the population to drop, but it has to be done carefully.
I think to a large extent the selfishness just expands to include your kids. Most parents are even less likely to consider the needs of people outside of their family because they weigh the needs of their kids far above others.
If you find your life worth living, if you have found joy in existing, then that's a gift worth sharing with your kids.

If you haven't found such joy to share, I feel for you but will say it's out there if you'll just see it.

I would've had an easier time with family if I'd started earlier; but thats all I'd change about my parenting choices, had I the choice.

The only thing I realized after having kids was how in the hell did I ever live without them. There was nothing more rewarding in my life than having children and both my wife and I had very rewarding careers.

It boils down to the type of person you are. Are you someone who can love your children more than yourself? If not then I would suggest not having children.

Dealing with so much poop is actually not that bad.
That’s the least dramatic part.

Dating drama is exhausting.

Late teenage rebellion period is exhausting.

Nothing like years of effort, lectures, standards tossed out the window. Umm daughter, your boyfriends profile picture is of him sticking a can up his ass. “”He loves me!, your stupid””

For younger ones chore battles are my current stress point.

I saw my future in those words. :D
Pro tip. No phones. No social media.

It was unreal to see a happy, social, respectful teenager become depressed, uninvolved and nasty with a phone.

Then a complete reversal every time it was taken away.

not very realistic. Bay Area, schools force parents to buy ipads (with Hangouts and everything else). Eventually they also need laptops to do projects. Pretty soon the house is littered with devices, old and new, trying to decide every second if a device is being used for a "legit" purpose or not becomes impractical. The best hope is to teach them what's sensible and what's not, and leave it up to them, after all, they will have to deal with phones and social networks for the rest of their lives without you.
Couldn’t disagree more. We have all the electronics for school.

Kids make terrible choices. Force good habits as long as possible.

It really isn’t, right?

I didn’t do it much. My wife seemed to think it was her job, and I wasn’t going to argue.

But I was surprised to discover that infant poop doesn’t hardly smell. And also surprised that when I got puked on, it didn’t bother me... it felt as if I had thrown up on myself, which is not fun, but also not really that terrible.

Don't have children just to keep your spouse. And this goes both for him and for her. That's all I have to say.
How flexible with your life are you? Would you still be you if you didn’t do 90% of the things you do now for pleasure.

Any big events ahead? Masters degree, travel world? Timing is important.

When you have a child you rise to the occasion. I have way less doubt about how to live my life after kids than before kids.

I will say it takes a huge amount of support. Knowing what I know now I would not recommend having a kid without a partner and supportive family. But that goes without saying. Most people who are single parents didn’t plan to be.

Having kids is a personal choice. In order to have them, you should want to have them. It's a gut feel. Conversely, if you don't, you shouldn't need any supporting arguments or evidence to justify that choice to someone else. It's your life. I get the sense that you already have the gut feel, but are looking for supporting evidence and I would ask "why?". The worst thing someone can do is have kids when they don't want to. Keep in mind, this gut feel can change over time.

My perspective: always had a gut feel that I wanted kids. Now have 3 young ones. Is it hard? Yes. Would my life be "easier" without them? In some ways (practically) and likely less so in others (emotionally, spiritually). Are there moments where I wish I was childless? Absolutely. Do those moments last and would I rather have a life without kids? No, not by a longshot. It's cliche, but I can't imagine a life as full and changing without them. Keep in mind I'm talking about me and my life here, not generalizing. A childless life can be just as fulfilling, if not more, for someone else.

The problem is when your gut is inconclusive, or when there’s a biological clock. Anecdotally from my experience, those are both common.
I don’t know why this is being downvoted.

I would say that plenty of people have kids by accident or because it’s expected of them then biology takes over.

I would say people that know they want kids 100% from the get go are probably in the minority it doesn’t mean that those who don’t love their kids any less or aren’t as good of a parent.

It also doesn’t mean that you can’t feel that you want kids and then regret it once reality sinks in.

I seriously can’t understand who would downvote this or why. The grey area of gut is literally the purpose of discussions like this one. I’m in that grey area and it’s like being stretched out by the limbs and waiting to find out which will give.
My experience has been "I want kids but I don't feel ready". To which I can now say "you never will". Not even with the second one. So jump in when you have a decent job and that's it.

As for the gut feeling, the problem is that it's hard to be exposed to what make children amazing because some if these things are obviously reserved to parents.

Letting your child fall asleep on your lap, because it trusts you completely is always a fantastic feeling.

Just get ready to forego a good chunk of your freedom for a few years, but be aware that it happens gradually. At 3 months you still have a somewhat decent life. At 2 years you need to be mostly dedicated to them.

Your hobbies will lose.
They'll come back. Little kids are incredibly time intensive, but once your youngest hits 6 or so and starts having their own interests, friends, hobbies, sleep overs, you'll start getting a lot of that free time back, and if you're lucky you can even start sharing hobbies with your kids.
My parents and grandparents comment that all the younger people today have to spend a lot more time with their kids than they ever did. They said they had 3 and 4 and 5 kids and once they were walking, they were outside in the village with other kids and older siblings/cousins and they didn’t see them again until they got hungry. Or maybe they ate at a neighbor’s house. Either way, parenting of little kids definitely takes more time and effort than previous generations.
This hits on an interesting point, the more kids in your general life, not just your own but among your family, friends and neighbors, the easier having more kids is. Its interesting in the tit suggests population growth is hard to find a stable equilibrium and instead groups would be expected to oscillate between growing too fast and shrinking.
You also have to live near friends and family, not be in an area with cars, and live close enough to each other to be able to walk. The design of modern suburbs precludes most of this, as does moving around for job opportunities/schools with greater proportions of richer kids.

Therefore this previously near zero cost activity of raising toddlers becomes a $15k+ per year expense for just daycare, on top of the time you personally have to attend to them at home.

My son mobbed me all the time until he turned 12 and a half. What happened then? He started online gaming. I have had peace and quiet ever since.

He met his wife while gaming, and now they’ve been married six years. A family that plays together stays together.

Little kids are a lot of work, especially if you don’t have redundancies like grandparents/aunts/uncles, or daycare and other little kids to entertain them.

If it’s just going to be you, the spouse, and the toddler stuck in a suburban house, I hope you genuinely enjoy playing with them a lot because they need constant attention.

Even after having kids, I think I’d be just as happy if I didn’t have them. I certainly wouldn’t want them if it was just going to be me and spouse, but luckily I can diffuse the responsibilities between daycare/grandparents/etc.

I also would lean towards not having them if I wasn’t completely financially secure and could afford them a home in a good neighborhood and colleges, but that’s due to me believing the income/wealth gap will continue to increase.

As others pointed out, your life changes. Your priorities rearrange. Given that, no regrets for me. My kids give me joy my hobbies could never match. It's work but it's worth it and love being a father and raising my kids.

The key thing I learned is a new perspective, I understand my parents and other parents a lot more now.

Honestly, I learned that deep down I hate my kids, but the societal bias against such a position leads me to appear otherwise. That adds to misery though, since now I’m just not myself. Obviously it was a mistake for me. They’re all around 7 now and I’m trying to do my best, but Id rather them grown and gone.

Lastly, all the talk about more fulfilling lives etc. How would you know anyway? It’s not like you took both paths and then compared.

I see alot of male misery is invalidated by the very people that could help

Something along the lines of “a man is complaining!? hahaha look everyone, a man feels a tiny bit of oppression!”

and never addressing the complaint

It takes a lot of bravery to admit this, and you're certainly not alone in feeling that way - disliking your kids is common but a taboo subject.

It's worth asking yourself whether you /want/ to like your kids. Would your life be better if you liked them? If you don't want to like them, why not? If you do want to, how might you go about that?

I hope this doesn't come across the wrong way, but a therapist can be a really good platform for talking through and exploring things like this, which might be hard to discuss with friends/family/etc.

This and other comments really reinforce the importance of good mate selection. Your children will inherit a random mix of your traits and your mate’s. If you have children with someone who has a preponderance of traits you dislike you’re liable to have a bad time of it as a parent. On the other hand if you choose well and have a little luck besides you’ll find that your children delight you and your spouse in wonderful and surprising ways.
Props to you for being able to communicate real feelings instead of burying down.

If somehow an internet stranger can change your perspective, I happen to find kids (actually, I view almost everyone as fundamentally) insanely intelligent and interesting. It's probably because I don't have kids that I am able to be in a less stressed position, but I find that watching kids grow is fascinating and frankly.. fucking incredible.

(for me) It's similar to learning about how insanely complex soil life is. Mind blown.

I know for a fact if I had not begun to come to terms with my own self and all of the things I don't like about myself over the past two years, I probably would be extremely critical of my kids as well. But I have learned to allow my critical-ness to manifest thoughts (as it always will) and then to let those thoughts go.

I’m not sure anything would have changed my decision, but I would have prioritized adventure travel more in the years before kids. On the other side I probably would have had them a few years earlier too. (Though other life circumstances made both of those tough)
Biggest thing I wish I would have known is that kids would have been way easier if I started younger. The lack of sleep and extra physical activity is seriously demanding to the point where my kids are now my primary motivation for excersizing just to keep up with them.

Obviously this doesn't help out older people, but for younger people debating to have kids earlier or later in life, the answer is have them earlier. I regret not spending my 20s filtering relationships by "do I want to have kids with this woman?" and breaking up immediately once I realized the answer was no.

Funny, I feel the other way around. I waited until I was 40 and everything seems like it was so much easier.

All our friends had had kids, so there was this unlimited supply of free baby stuff available. Not that we needed free stuff because we had a whole lifetime of savings and high paying jobs to cover any expenses that might have come up. I also don't need anywhere near as much sleep anymore as I did in my 20s, so when it turned out that I had to stay up all night every night, it wasn't all that hard to make the switch.

I can't imagine how I could have pulled it off if I also had to work the crappy entry level office job I had in my 20s, living in my dingy studio apartment and eating ramen to try to squirrel away some savings.

Waiting until you're 40 is doing it on easy mode.

Also, when you're 40 chances are you're not going to be at home with a 2 year old wishing you were in a club getting hammered.

And you hopefully have a better idea of yourself and some more humility.

I would have had kids earlier.

I spent my twenties building a career, partying, and traveling, and I'd give it all back to have more time with my kids (and potentially even a few more kids.)

Before having kids, I expected it to be this huge life changing thing. That it would effectively end the part of my life where I was free to do whatever I wanted, and start the part where I was just Daddy, doing nothing except serving my childrens' needs.

But that didn't happen. We just carried on being Jason and his partner, but with a baby in tow.

I had spent most of my 30s cramming in as much "living" as possible, to make sure I'd stocked away a lifetime supply of it. After all, I'd probably never get another chance to travel for long periods, keep up with climbing, and all that other stuff that Independent Jason could do.

But it was all for naught. We just packed the kid along and went traveling anyway. He had eleven stamps in his passport by his first birthday.

Life is just as much fun as ever. But now we have some kids to play with.

As a 43yr male with 4 kids, 19G, 15G, 10B and 7G I honestly question everyday was having kids the right choice. I love them all to bits but like freshgreen9 sometimes I hate the shits.. Then best age is around 2 - 4, its when they sleep through the night, are almost toilet trained, can communicate and eat mostly anything. At this age they are beautiful and are your world. Just before they get tainted by the realworld and become shits..
I didn't plan on having kids. My wife had 3 teenage kids when we met, and didn't plan for more. Then circumstance intervened. A family member needed adopting, and we were the clear first choice. We got him at 13 months when he was released from medical foster care. It's been eye-opening.

My best analysis is that humans are terrible at long-term planning: hence our (at least American) level of personal retirement planning. And children never "pay off". If you expect gratefulness, you are likely to be dissapointed.

So nature doesn't leave it to that. Instead it pushes some powerful, deep-seated buttons in our psyche. Hard. I was shocked to realize on day, after about 6 months, I would kill and die for my son, and looking around realizing most parents out there feel the same. It's this weird, unspoken understanding in our society. And some scary, intense anger at his birth mom. Nature doesn't leave this to chance, instead, it hard-codes the stuff essential to survival.

For a small percentage of people, this button-pushing never happens, and they wonder what the Hell is wrong with them. To them I say, Nothing is wrong with you.

Do a test drive. Offer your friends to babysit their kids and see how it goes...
I did this but honestly in hindsight it didn’t tell me a lot. Two reasons come to mind:

1. Watching other peoples’ kids is a time-limited exercise. A major challenge with your own kids is that it’s constant and effectively without end.

2. There’s a big difference between kids and MY kids. I just have more intrinsic interest in my own. I do have more “tools” available to me to engage with others’ kids now (up to my own kids’ ages at least) but I care less. Not saying I dislike others’ kids, just that it’s different.

I remember having my friends (with two kids, 2 and 5) visit us before we had our own children. We have spent a full day together. I was so exhausted with the amount of stimuli that I thought I'll never have my own children. Yet, two years later our first kid was born.. and still, the amount of stimuli is sometimes above my norm. Such is life :)
As a 43yr male with 4 kids, 19G, 15G, 10B and 7G I honestly question everyday was having kids the right choice. I love them all to bits but like freshgreen9 sometimes I hate the shits..

Then best age is around 2 - 4, when they sleep through the night, are almost toilet trained, can communicate and eat mostly anything. At this age they are beautiful and are your world and you are theirs. Just before they get tainted by the realworld and become shits.. Then from that point, its a constant learning curve.

I learnt as much about myself as a man and person from my 19 yr as I do from my 7yr and as much from my 10 yr son. I am forever learning and sometime they are painful lessons, ones where you have to pull up your big boy pants and firm it, type of pain.

The best advise I wish I was told earlier is, just because they are your kids it doesnt mean you can expect them to be how you want them to be. We as parents are there to simply guide provide some guide rails, then step the f*k back and leave them on their journey. If you try to do anything other than step back and wait till they need you, your in for a world of heart ache and pain!!!

p.s. GOOD LUCK!!

Something I haven't seen in the comments, yet, is that kids are truly a one-way decision. I knew this before I went into it, but the repercussions didn't really hit me until after we brought the kid into the world.

You will find out things about your spouse and yourself that you never knew about, but your kid will have inherited them. Some of these things are attractive features, others are not. You might have to figure out how to deal with a feature of your kid that is not attractive. Some of these things can be fixed in post, others, not so much. Some of these possibilities include genetic diseases, which absolutely no one deserves, but do happen.

Having a kid is an enormously brave and risky decision. You roll the dice and you get what you get. There's no going back.

Edit: All that said, I do not regret my decision, even though I've been exhausted for coming up on two years and so has my wife. When it's bad, it's the worst. When it's good, it's the best. You will find yourself capable of more patience and resilience than you ever thought possible.

it's as brave as "travelling" or "applying to business school" - it's just another experience to be consumed.
Having travelled, gone to grad school, and had kids, I can assure you that kids are more challenging and more rewarding than either of the other two.

Describing the decision to have a family as "another experience to be consumed" betrays an otherworldly level of antinatalist smugness.

The fact that you compared the experiences and concluded that having kids is the more rewarding one - pretty much proves my point. There was no need to do it and yet you did it anyway…
If this is some kind of weird incel troll humor, I'm not getting the joke.

Going around and telling parents that they didn't need to have their children is inflammatory. You'll have a much better time if you learn not to say things like that.

> Some of these things can be fixed in post

Excellent turn of phrase. Some of the bugs will have to be fixed in production but some technical debt you'll just be stuck with.

Always wondered if it's more comforting to die without kids? More painful not to see them grow up, or comforting to know you left some descendants?
Nothing I’ve learned so far that would make me change my decision to have kids. I have one daughter, and am absolutely loving it.

That said, I can understand this isn’t for everyone. I wanted to have kids, and understood the pace of my life would change because of it. Having kids absolutely does take sacrifice, commitment, sleeplessness, stress, money, and a lot of things one might not want to give up.

But! I’ve learned a lot about love and sacrifice and empathize at a deeper level of understanding for other parents. Any child with a health condition becomes heart breaking in a way that’s tough to communicate. Stressed out and tired parents are doing their best in difficult circumstances.

There are a lot of reasons to have or not have a kid. Choose what’s right for you but make sure to be honest with yourself.

With the first kid, I wouldn’t have chosen his mom, I should have shopped around more.

It’s cost me a ton of money, and my health dealing with her after the fact. Kid is 11 now, and doing pretty well all things considered, but it’s been a long road to get here. At least I have legal custody and get to make decisions vs letting conspiracy theories inform all decisions.

With the 2nd kid, I chose wisely, and no issues with my wife, and she’s a great step mom to my 2nd kid.