Tell HN: Long Term Suicide Planning
I took major steps towards completing suicide back in 2018 and have held on since then. Things have deteriorated since then. Afraid to go but it's time. I pray for forgiveness.
If I'm crazy, I want to die. If I'm not delusional, then humans are truly shit (e.g. reddit [reddit is a ycombinator alum 2005/2006] stalking in 2009 and dozens of incidents since) and I want to die.
Fuck you, reddit scumbags and your Putin worship from long ago. Creepy ass scumbag fucks with data and algos. Good riddance. Get me off this ape planet.
Au revoir.
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[ 5.2 ms ] story [ 113 ms ] threadBUT: It is pointless to go. Who shall prevent all the madness from happening when all sane people are gone? The world needs those people who go against wrong doers of all kinds.
#1 2009 #2 2014 #3 2014 #4 2018
#4 was a celebration of sorts
as for putin worship, anyone who used the site back then remembers how fond reddit users were of him.
Get a grip. Your thinking is disordered. It is a sickness to be so pre-occupied to the point of suicidal despair with the status of a politician on an internet message board. What's more is in my experience having spent a lot of time on Reddit in 2018 and 2019 the vast majority of users in mainline subs were virulently anti Putin despite not even living in Russia. Seek help whoever you are. Suicide is not the answer to thought disorder (these are text book paranoid schizophrenia symptoms btw).
Being threatened with murder and blackmailed are two other incidents. Being falsely accused of a felony by someone who committed a felony against me, while bearing witness to conspired perjury was another. I used all of my resources to defend myself and was never the same thereafter, and my name is now ruined.
There were also a number of other incidents that led to this. Being harassed using reddit was just one.
Do you want to hear about the time I was molested by a closeted homosexual male in power, in the context of a job interview, and was ashamed to go public when he was put on trial for this by others? How about my physical impairment that prevents me from maintaining focus for any extended period of time?
So, stranger, should I seek help, or clean the genepool by commiting suicide (leaving behind three offspring)? Which is it?
The interview was for a personal assistant position that lasted about two weeks. The lawsuit against this predator was in the local news.
Now shut up before someone tears a new asshole into you.
What's your experience with cases involving male on male molestation in workplace environments, exactly? Please share with us your experience that led to such an obvious hindsight analysis of the situation.
Wow, being molested and being ashamed to report it must be a symptom of paranoid schizophrenia. Can't imagine how I concluded this species is dog shit.
Yup, sexual assault victim for a personal assistant interview that lasted two weeks, culminating in an embarassing male on male sexual assault, and I'm hypersensitive for not reporting it.
Sincerely, thanks for helping me to better accept this difficult truth: The problem is me, the species is better off without me, and so suicide is the best move for everyone. Thanks.
If you're in another country there is most likely a local equivalent. Please talk to someone!
Watch your mouth, next time. The way you spoke to a person looking over the ledge of suicide is despicable and malicious, and someone ought to teach you a lesson.
Answer my question, boy. Someone ought to shut your mouth.
You said something about doing the gene pool a favor by finishing suicide. So, what about my three children?
Also, you're making this decision process easier for me. Your comments seem to be a low key effort to nudge me to suicide. You're responsible for your comments.
You keep bringing up the Putin worship thing in a fallacious context, you doubt my claim about being molested, and told me I'd do the gene pool a favor by committing suicide. You're acting in a highly malicious manner towards me, stranger.
I've banned this account until we get some reason to believe that you will never treat anyone badly on HN again.
https://news.ycombinator.com/newsguidelines.html
I haven't eaten in two days and ran out of drinking water today.
Do you have any idea what that's like trying to come forward about a serious sexual assault incident and being told that I might be imagining it? I'll tell you. It causes suicide, you lowlife troll. Go talk to military investigators on behalf of male on male sexual assault victims. You know what they do, scumbag? They choose suicide before reporting it, scumbag. It's a shameful tragedy that you will likely never know. Remember that next time before dropping your troll suicidal nudges.
God damn mother fuck this ape species. dang, I'm out. So thankful to be almost gone off of this ape planet.
Do you think your comments making an uninformed amateur diagnosis of a serious mental illness, telling me that I'd do the species a favor by killing myself, and denying the veracity of my sexual assault claim are in any way helpful to me, or somehow going to motivate me to "seek help"? ('seek help' is another perjorative)
You seem intent on continuing to attack me with your snarky follow-up. Listen carefully. Provide follow-up comments to my comments about the male on male sexual assault incident I disclosed here.
I actually do agree that my suicide will clean up the gene pool. The cold hard reality is that you're right on many counts: that, and that I'm sensitive.
Sadly I have zero intention on "seeking help" and it has nothing to do with you or your comments.
Considering what I've experienced particularly with cesspools like reddit formed with the substantial help of ycombinator, it's appropriate. You may disagree and clearly you doubt my claims but you don't know who I am or what I was connected to that may have led to being targeted over time. At least consider that.
Now shut your goddamn piehole, troglodyte.
Harassing any other user like you did in this thread is not acceptable, let alone when someone is expressing suicidal feeling. I don't believe that you intended to harass them, but the way you behaved in this thread was so bad as to be breathtaking. You can't help anyone like this on the internet, and you certainly can't treat other people like this on HN.
If you don't want to be banned, you're welcome to email hn@ycombinator.com and give us reason to believe that this won't happen again on HN ever.
I won't starve myself. Just out of money. I have a better method ready.
Thanks.
Almost 40, I have a wife and children, I could never dream of leaving them and so no matter how bad things get, I’m always reminded that I have something better to live for. I cannot imagine what it’s like for someone who doesn’t have some thing or someone to live for, or something to look forward to an aspire to day after day. Nevertheless, life is what you make it, and it is your life to live or end.
I will try to finish suicide now and do the gene pool a favor.
Thanks.
Do you believe that your comments are in any way helping? Possible that your comments are harmful?
I want to raise awareness about the extent of malice that is going on with silicon valley properties and how that's crossed over into real life.
Reddit only exists due to ycombinator.