Ask HN: If you used to be socially awkward and shy, how did you improve?

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Recently, I cannot help but notice how shy and socially awkward I might be at times, which is quite frustrating.

To be fair to myself, I am not awful in social situations in that depending on the context I can be seemingly confident and calm, especially when I am among people I know and the context is familiar.

When it comes to new people and places, everything changes dramatically. My voice changes, my posture changes, everything changes. I can start being awkward in all possible senses.

The discomfort gets to the point where I blush and this physical state of vulnerability and self-doubt of course makes things even worse :)

I understand that all of that relates to self-esteem and phychology in general therefore my question.

It's common to advise hitting on the gym, which I just started doing last week. Funnily, the gym is the place where I last noticed my awkward behavior :)

If you have managed to deal with that and improve in that regard, what is your success story?

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I had my epiphany when I saw the guy, whom I believed to be the master of socialization, practiced his lines in the toilet before a big event. Relax, everybody is socially awkward.
How much experience do you have in social situations? If your answer is "not very much", the solution probably lies in exposure. Once something becomes routine, it's much easier to manage because so many elements of that thing become second nature. When you're inexperienced in social situations your mind is far more stressed with every little detail, which ultimately builds up into what most people call "awkwardness".
There are very few psychiatrists here on HN, but tons of armchair psychiatrists. If you feel like you need help with socialization, I strongly recommend getting in touch with one. It’s not as uncommon as it seems.
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Define "improve", I myself do not see changing the way one behaves to fit some socially accepted standard as improvement of any kind whatsoever.

By the way, this question is off-topic here, please use reddit.

Testosterone injections have really helped me. You can try increasing your T naturally
> depending on the context I can be seemingly confident and calm

This ought to be great to be able to know. It means you can probably moderate your social exposure to fit your experience level and build on a known foundation.

Success is much easier if you can define the social context you're aiming for beforehand, and slowly work at mastery. If you open the filter too much too early (i.e. I want to be able to be social anytime & anywhere), it's overwhelming.

Good luck, you got this. (Personality trainer)

I have been diagnosed with social anxiety, general anxiety, and depression. I've always felt socially awkward and shy. However, at 35 years of age I was finally diagnosed as ADHD-PI (predominantly inattentive). Treating that has basically eliminated the social anxiety and shyness, since it seems those existed through the lens of the untreated ADHD-PI. I'm still me and am surely introverted, but I can function in a social setting without feeling awkward or shy... the interaction feels natural and honest. While the folks around me noticed a bit of change, I noticed an enjoyment of life that I never seemed to experience before. I feel I am a better father to my children, which is the most meaningful part of the change to me.
How was it treated?
Similarly, I'm an introvert and quickly used to feel uncomfortable among people I didn't know. Parties used to be exhausting! Then I started my own business and had to learn to network. One very helpful idea, taken from the book "How to win friends and influence people" was to take (genuine) interest in the other people present. Instead of talking about myself, I like to ask people what they do, how they got there, what they like, etc. People loooove to talk about themselves, so it makes for very easy conversations, and slowly, each of those strengthened my confidence in such settings to the point where I actually enjoy them now (I still need breaks every 60 minutes to recharge alone before returning back into the crowd).
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By working from home so I don't have to be around others.

It turns out I'm not really that shy. I just don't like spending more than about 3 minutes at a time around most people.

When I was young, a bit tongue tied, poor and full of bad judgement, I spent a lot of time hitchhiking across Europe.

Talking to lots of more or less crazy drivers several times a day, week after week, unlocked something in me, and since then I've been able to have a pretty good conversation with anyone about anything.

Here’s what I did (would’ve been about 2009-2011, when I was late 20s/early 30s):

• Say yes to every social invitation I received for a period of about 2 years, whether it was something I thought would be fun or not — and never flake. Get to be known as a reliable person who is down for anything.

• Set a goal of speaking to a person I didn’t know every day — could be as simple as “Hello” to a cashier at the grocery store, but I had to do it

• Date more - went out on an average of 2 first dates a week (all found through OK Cupid). Just getting coffee, going to dinner, going to a movie, taking a walk — simple stuff with no pressure. Just meet another person, ask questions about their life, share about my own life.

It was a very fun and life-changing experience.

Most comments here are pretty simplistic like telling a fat person to workout/eat less to lose weight. I assume you aren't looking for that kind of advice. those things only work for a short amount of a time and you revert back to your old comfortable self. Its so much less work to think of yourself as a shy person and call it a day.

1. Stop thinking of yourself as shy person. As soon as that thought comes to your mind squash it immediately. Never ever complete that thought. That thought usually comes as a pressure release self compassion mechanism under stressful social situations like walking into a new place.

2. Focus on the opportunity instead of the obligation. Once you have quelled that thought replace that thought with what you might get from this social iteration, like potential date. Contrary to popular belief shy ppl get immense joy from social interactions.

3. Shyness is ego gone haywire. Get your ego under control, its ok if you tried to talk to someone and they just ignore you. Get your ego under control. No one really gives a shit about you and ppl have very very short memories. Redirect that thought back to no 2.

"everything changes dramatically" - Practice each little bit one element at a time.

Posture is a great place to start. Just practice making sure that you keep a confident posture. Standing up straight. Shoulders back and relaxed. Head looking forward and alert. Focus on keeping your posture. A lot of how people read "confidence" is noticing these cues. It will become second nature if you practice.

Check out "power posing" also. Works for some people, doesn't work for others. Totally works for me.

For your voice, what is it doing? Probably going up higher? That's because your muscles in your neck are tightening up. Gotta keep them relaxed. I bet you'll find when you get your relaxed posture in place that your voice will change less also.

Took acid and went to raves did wonders for this. Still introverted and whatnot but a lot less of a recluse.
Noticing is the first step! A therapist can really help you as it sounds like a part of you is experiencing anxiety. Essentially you have developed a learned behavior and you have to unlearn it by replacing your habit with a new one. Part of that is say exposure therapy (meaning, just go out and meet people). It also helps to develop a framework and set of scripts for what to do which is where a therapist can come in handy (also for how you process the situation). We teach these things to kids with autism all the time.

If you need a script the easiest thing to do and understand is that people love to talk about themselves.

1. introduce yourself 2. ask their name 3. ask how they are or how their day is going 4 .... 5. continue to ask them questions as they appropriately come up.

Question 4 can be context dependent.. are you at a party of a mutual friend? Are you at a meetup? Basically use the shared environment to bootstrap the conversation. So a question could be like, "how do you know so and so" etc...

When I feel shy, I always seek out someone else seemingly shy and strike up a conversation that way.

It doesn't have to be perfect. And maybe take a friend with you who has more social awareness to help you. Tell them what your goal is.

Also if someone notices you are blushing and feeling flustered etc.. and asks you what's wrong, just take a breath and say that social situations are difficult for you but you are learning to work through them. Lots of people will be understanding. I say this as an adult. Sometimes you can be around immature folks who do not help the situation but those are people you don't really want to be around anyway.

If OP is making the effort to ask, I'd also toss out the option of finding a life coach.

In my personal experience and opinion, therapists seem to be... less aggressive / more tolerant of neurodivergent behavior, in a way that I didn't find as productive.

I was looking for someone who I could tell "I want to X" and would help me make that happen, less "I feel bad about my inability to X".

That "and" of the "Just go out and meet people" is the part that my brain struggles with.

I can walk out of the door just fine, but my brain stops functioning when I try to think of things to do from there. I can likewise handle meeting new people if I somehow end up in a situation where that happens. It's just doing that intentionally that I have so far been unable to accomplish.

The "doing that intentionally" bit is something I think you sort of have to roll with; some days are good, some days are bad.

I've all sorts of strategies, but if I have no explicit purpose at some event I struggle with getting out of the house, and I'm just not enough of a dog person to get a dog.

But if you go out on the good days -- which is all really anyone does! -- then people will remember you if you only pop in to some event briefly on your bad days.

I would pick things that align with your interests. Go to a museum, go to a play that has an intermission, go skiing, pick up a club sport, meetups, cooking classes, book signing, improv class, music class, fishing class, board game nights...

Lots of things to try.

Everything I can get my brain interested in is a solo activity. I feel like whenever I try to even think about doing something that requires me to initiate contact with people, some unconscious part of me "resets" my thoughts and they just get stuck in a useless loop. On the rare occasion that I manage to override that and go somewhere, I am unable to engage with people even though I want to.

I don't hate interacting with people; quite the opposite in fact. I just for some unknown reason am seemingly completely incapable of initiating interaction with unfamiliar people (and even initiating anything with people I know is rare for me to do).

I would encourage you to spend time in those spaces with no intention to interact. Just go and spend time observing your thoughts and feelings. If you feel like you don't have much vocabulary for your emotions, two book I really recommend are Brene Brown's "Atlas of the Heart" [1], where a researcher names, describes, and compares the various emotions, and "The Emotion Thesaurus" [2], a writer's guide that includes a lot of description that can help with pattern-matching.

Once you have a handle on the feelings and what triggers them, I think you'll get some insight into the currently unknown reasons. I'd be you'll also have theories on how to work around it, but if not, a good therapist can help.

[1] https://brenebrown.com/book/atlas-of-the-heart/

[2] https://www.amazon.com/Emotion-Thesaurus-Writers-Character-E...

What things get your "brain interested", if I may ask?
Not saying this is the best approach and it won't be a popular opinion, but drugs--particularly alcohol--were key to me breaking out of my shell.
I remain convinced that weed helped me a lot here. I also basically apprenticed myself to a couple of very charming extroverted people and learned what I could from them.
For alcohol at least, I don't think that's actually too unpopular an opinion. Drinking is a fairly universal social activity, and it's allowed me to meet and befriend a lot of people I probably wouldn't have otherwise.
Certainly interesting seeing the swings of upvotes and downvotes, though, hah. (That's neither a complaint nor unexpected.)
Psychedelics did it for me, I was looking for fun but as an unintended consequence I became much more extrovert.

Of course, don't actually do hard drugs without medical supervision. You are more likely to end up worse off. A counter anecdote, a friend of mine who was really extroverted is now pretty shy and nervous in social interactions after suffering a few psychotic episodes during one of our drug binges.

I’m curious how did psychedelics made you more extroverted? i.e was it less internal monologue, more energy, etc
After the experience I was more open to interacting to people. The difference between avoiding eye contact and just saying hi to someone can be huge. Instead of just passing by someone I'd stop and talk to them--sometimes for hours. At first I was still pretty awkward but after time and just talking to people I'm one of the most sociable people in my circle. And it is a wide circle.

So in short my first reaction to meeting someone wasn't avoidance but instead to interact with them.

I'd agree that this helped me a lot, but I'm still paying for it.

Alcohol in particular is a really nasty drug. Psychedelics are something I love to do every now and then, but they're really not for everyone and should be approached with caution.

A small dose of MDMA though. A little goes a long way, not a bad shout if you're open to it.

For me, a little alcohol helps a bit, but if I have too much I end up talking plenty - but it's absolute bollocks that just makes me seem even weirder... :(
i already had a problem. but i took it to the dive bars and learned quite a bit about how to be human. of course eventually I had to quit everything, and while i know how to hang out with people now...i kind of don't want to anymore
I was a shy and awkward kid, and I suspect that never really goes away, but the contexts where that becomes an issue can be learnt away.

I.e. you can learn to prepare for certain situations, and learn that the outcome doesnt have to be bad. That can relax you, but there will always be situations that make you nervous.

I guess don't shy away from doing the things you need to be doing, and you will learn to deal with these situations better and be more relaxed about it.

1. I put myself willingly in social situations in which I didn't know anyone. The trick for me was picking and going alone to social events (= events in which there is a lot of group talks) in which I was fairly interested but not REALLY interested, so I felt that was not problem to bail out at any moment, in any way, without giving any explanation, nor I cared if I did something really awkward or even had a panic attack (it surprisingly didn't happen), I said to myself "In that case, if I felt really in the wrong group of people, I would just not come anymore to this specific series of events and that's all... no one is really gonna care"

2. In those social situations I tried to listen far far FAR more than I talk, and also observe. Once you really observe people around you you can see how many of them are awkward and shy and make "social mistakes" and recover from them without problems. You'll see most people are really not that different than yourself.

It worked very well for me, got confident incredibly fast. The hardest part is probably the first one or two events. I remember that for the first one, which was a recurring monthly event, I went physically as far as the door of the location in which it took place for two times without entering and bailing out at last second because of anxiety. Than the next month I went in and since then I still go to that series of events, and I found one of the best shy community I could hope for.

Well it sounds like you already made the most significant jump, which is realizing that social skills are just a skill, and like all skills they can be improved with practice. So practice. Put yourself in situations where you're a little out of your comfort zone and focus on small improvements (can I introduce myself to someone at this party? Can I make friends with someone at this party? Can I have a conversation with my seatmate on the plane? etc...).

Remember that most people instinctively want to like you. Let them. But sometimes people are closed off. Do not let that get to you. Just stay chipper and move on.

I used to be the shy nerdy kid in school but most people in my life now wouldn't believe me if I told them that. I made a really deliberate effort to gain confidence in my social skills.

It's dated and embarrassingly titled, but How To Win Friends And Influence People is a really good, genuine book on this.

Throwing myself out there, getting rejected and snubbed otherwise slapped around a lot .. until I slowly started to figure out how to observe "normal, healthy" people and learn from them.

Among the things we learn is -- that we are much more "plastic" (and able to change by sheer force of will) than we initially thought. Things like hygiene, posture, clarity of speech (such that people can at least understand us) and tonal confidence are, for many of us, simply matters of bad habit that can be unlearned and their negative effects reversed, over time.

The more we improve ourselves in these basic areas, the better we feel about ourselves... and soon enough people notice, and over time it becomes not only gets easier but starts to feel natural. Not instantly but... over time. Until the day comes when you stop thinking (so much) about how "awkward" you are, and instead you're thinking about your new life, your new friends, your hot new relationship, your awesome new day job (if that matters), etc.

That and two other tips: (1) Taking the plunge, and moving to a totally new geographic area (or even just getting a different, much better place in the city where you live) can do wonders; as does (2) Paradoxically, not giving an F about what other people think. That is to say, acknowledging that it matters to some degree, on a certain level ... but in the scheme of things, it also just doesn't matter. Which helps you relax and feel confident (which does a lot to ameliorate the negative perceptions people have of you).

Ironically, I have done exactly the two tips you mentioned, and I can confidently say that my life has changed drastically. In fact, so much so, that when I catch up with people who knew me even two years ago, they usually make a comment.

One thing I was initially afraid of when deciding to move was “running away from my problems” only to realize I’m in the exact same situation as before. Well, that was actually very true. I still felt like the same “awkward” person despite moving across the country. But here’s the difference; I was actually motivated to fix it.

Being in a new city opened my eyes to how much I wanted to explore, but also how much I was holding myself back. Ever since moving, I’ve lost my fear of being myself, have a partner, and found a higher paying job.

My main point here is that while you can’t run away from your true inner self, a new environment can certainly change your perspective and direction. I also want to note that I’m making it sound like it was as easy as moving, so to be transparent, it wasn’t easy. It took a lot of self discipline and discomfort, but it was worth every second of doubt.

If it took only 2 years, it was easy. I’ve travelled around the world and did most of the possible side quests, including the workout phase, the guitar phase, the charity/vegan phase, the millionaire phase, and I’m still transparent to women. And I’ve grown bitter.

I did everything I could. I’d say “please, help” but to be honest, I’ve grown too bitter to hear the advice. It’s a game designed to make me lose, I’m neither BALM nor female, so they just want to exclude me.

It’s not about them it’s about you. Do things for you, not them.

If you still insist on making it about them do everything women complain about that’s not illegal, except dick pics, unless you’re hung.

I’d recommend pairing the millionaire thing with bringing a couple grams with you to party. Everything else you described sounds like incel stuff.

You're referring to life as a game, and checking off a list of objectives. I might be wrong, but from just what you said it sounds like you did these "phases" because you wanted people to think you were these things, not because you were them. I've found people (especially woman) are good at seeing through these pretenses.
What tells you I wanted people to believe I were these things? I did guitar because it was nice to sing, and the idea of singing around a bonfire and maybe making people sing was just a good feeling. I sang the last song of a friend who died from cancer, and that was a song we had written together. He went for his last sleep on it, that’s the best departure I could imagine for him. Unfortunately, I plateaued at some level, like probably everyone does, so it became boring and annoying to not progress. It doesn’t mean I wasn’t guitar.

Anyway I don’t understand what women are looking for, that’s why I’m getting downvoted.

I want to help, but you actually supported my point. You learnt guitar because you wanted the good feeling of people joining in you, which is the feeling of admiration.

You've supposedly been very successful and are caring of your friends, so I might be wrong of course. But it sounds like a case of socialmedia addiction along with incel-esk belief that if you matched a certain image, women would simply line up. You should do things because they are your passion.

To test this, is there a skill you're proud of and promote as your image that would not be seen as classically attractive? A stunning Pong score, a weirdly advance knowledge of B52 planes? A passion for fantasy books and their effect on the Mongolian peninsula?

And I say all of this as someone who tried to learn guitar because I wanted to have that cool singing moment, but looking back I just wanted to be the center of attention. Which is very unattractive.
> good feeling of people joining in you, which is the feeling of admiration.

Well, look around you, everyone gets their minute on stage, my schoolmates literally were into acting and showing off all the time. Even the thief of the band is with a cute girl now lol. But about ego-fuelled passions: the more everyone has a skill at making something beautiful, the more fun are your parties, because they all add up. So, it’s good to learn stuff, and I mostly want my participation trophy for bringing my share.

> You are supposedly caring of your friends

Yeah I was the one caring for the cancer friend while everyone had swimming pool. I was his worst political enemy when alive, he would have punched me if he had known my opinions, and here I was, his worst enemy, playing him his own song for his last breath, and none of his commie friends were here. Two days later his mother called me saying he never woke up. I was the last guy he saw, and not randomly, I was there every second day despite being 120km away. Me, the guy seen as selfish.

> But it sounds like a case of socialmedia addiction along with incel-esk belief that if you matched a certain image, women would simply line up.

Can you technically describe it in a worse way? I think it’s a case of when a man isn’t successful, we blame him, and we depict him as the worst possible man, like expecting to “have pussy lined up like in the good ol’ times, cause you know, I’m all muscles and virility, big car with big sound, so women dishwasher blahblahblah.” I’m not this man. I’m just angry because I’m losing at life, and everyone caricatures me. I might just not be talented socially despite making all attempts respectfully (and making all attempts respectfully is what girls hate the most - even wifebeaters have a wife, I don’t) but it’s easier to imagine an incel chad, because the goal is to find a way to blame it on the guy.

> You should do things because they are your passion. To test this, is there a skill you're proud of and promote as your image that would not be seen as classically attractive?

Yes, my work: I love building products and participating to the economic world, notably because it’s what I do best, but also because it makes everyone’s life better. Belonging to a charity is equally important. I also like windsurfing and guitar, but I’m average in both. But do realize that no woman is interested in a no-life worker with average level in two things, so yes, men have to adapt and do social stuff which puts them forward, preferably stuff that are halfway towards meeting women on a common ground. So according to your theory (for the return caricature, don’t take it literally), I should now be more seducing because I’m passionate in something. Actually, technically, you are saying not that I should be passionate, but I should be having a “stunning score” in that passion, so being excellent is required.

I think all of those are wrong leads. I think we as men should develop skills in many areas, guitar and windsurf included, and make a living and care for others around us, and girls should like us for who we are, and the fact that I’m not in, is both an unfortunate turn of events AND a very very very high hypocrisy of society about the incredible lack of consideration we give to men. And, perhaps, that society pushes so much into making diversity fashionable, that you really have to give “way more” of yourself as a white straight man, if you want a woman to accept you. And sorry, but I don’t want to be a slave to a woman, and I don’t want either to cheat her ego by flattering her with untrue stuff like so many are doing.

I’m crying because, writing this text, I notice I did so many things right, and I’m still losing at life and people still turn the blame back onto me. It’s an endless roundrobbin of blame, no-one will ever say “Ok guys, we did a mistake as a society, all wifebeaters have a wife, while regular workers get an annoying couple or no wife at all, while people who lie to w...

Your kindness to your friend was noble. I apologise for my frank diagnosis. Being talented as a cog of the economy is sadly very classically attractive, doubly so because you again do it because you wish to impact other people. I wish you the best.
There's a lot wrong with society, and the expectations that are put on men which are ultimately damaging isn't talked about enough. Broadly, I think there's a sense that men must "earn" their worth through achievements, i.e. you are not born with inherent 'worth'. This belief is inculcated into us at a young age, explicitly or otherwise, and constantly re-affirmed by our media and culture as a whole.

There are two ironies to this. The first irony is that no matter what some people do, they will not reap the 'rewards' that was promised to them. This becomes obviously true when we remember that we don't live in a just world, at all, of which this fantasy of cosmic justice relies on. The second irony is that this fantasy of cosmic justice is inherently damaging and perpetuates injustice. We need to drop the idea that good things follow good people.

In your case, you're seeing it play out in the dating world, where issues of loneliness and the natural, human desire for intimacy are dismissed as being superficial complaints from basement-dwelling "incels". I am sorry that you experience this. Moreover, there appears to be no correlation between passions for a number of hobbies and lifestyles with what people are ultimately attracted to. Personally, I think we should drop the whole idea that there's a list of things men need to do before women can find them attractive. The same goes for women.

I don't know you personally, and I think these kind of issues hit at the most vulnerable parts of people so I don't want to sway you with any specific ideas of my own. So the only advice I can offer is cautionary: be wary of adopting only a masochistic epistemology. It is tempting to see the world through the lens of "I will never be attractive to women, no matter what I do" and finding every example of this to reinforce it. Everyone who has experienced the darker depths of the human soul knows that there is a pleasure in believing that whatever hurts is true. This leads to a vicious cycle of thoughts. This pessimism must be tempered by an optimistic epistemology. What that bountiful optimism looks like to you, I don't know, but from my experience, it is a missing 'second half' to the world that I had to consciously find which brought a healing and resiliency that deepened my relationship with myself as well as others. Best of luck.

Women basically just want masculinity (often described as "confidence", but there's more involved) plus not being an asshole. Everything else is just gravy
You figured out what women want?? Have fun with that.
I have been having fun with it, very often
BALM?
Black, Asian, Latino, or Mixed. Basically he's just a regular white man which gets no love in a lot of liberal areas unless you do something unique like those "phases" he mentioned. He should move. The best thing you can do as a white man is move somewhere that everyone isn't white. Then you will get a lot of attention even if you're very boring.
You describe an approach to dating that sounds like you're playing a video game and everyone else is an NPC. It's not about ticking achievements off a box. You're playing the race card, but I'm pretty positive that there are countless white males less successful than a claimed fit millionaire guitar-playing you who somehow have found relationships! If you could somehow change your skin color you'd have the same problems because that's no more a meaningful change for building strong relationships than playing guitar or working out.
This comment contains no advice. It just tells that all the tracks I’ve tried are wrong/not useful (in your books, at least).
It contains a lot of advice.

Like:

- stop treating people like NPCs in game, because it makes you look like a simpleton not them - "scoring" is not the goal, living life is - being interesting as a person is much more than "working out", "playing guitar" - if you try to "score" you seem like desperate loser, people see right through it - amount of money in bank account does not mean much if you are desperate loser - people have emotions and it is most important part to understand to "win" in life

Cool, I do none of that.

The lengths that are required for people to acknowledge a problem… The “it must be you” answer.

Great answer. I agree getting out of one's comfort zone can go a long way to bringing new perspective, and adapting, and developing new skills. Especially social ones.
+1 to worrying less about what other people think of you. Ironically, this caring less can actually make people like you more (because you seem more confident).
How do you stop caring? I would give nearly anything for this superpower. Even obviously completely insignificant moments that matter to no-one can stick with me for days, and some stay with me for years, bubbling up and causing anxiety or low mood out of nowhere. No amount of rational analysis or forced positive thinking seems to help.
Perhaps cognitive behavior therapy could help with your anxiety.
For me it was a combination of having achieved some amount of success (physical, financial, career) and also some humbling failure.

Basically I learned I'm not so bad, and I'm not a great man either. I'm good enough. I don't hurt other people.

I like myself, and when you genuinely like yourself then other people's opinions aren't quite as important. Nearly everyone responds positively when you aren't seeking other's approval (but are still kind).

I suspect this comes with age for a lot of people. Didn't happen for me until my 30s. Losing weight and getting into shape was a huge catalyst, I highly recommend it.

You have to expect that quite a few people aren't going to like you, in any case, you just aren't compatible. After all, do you like everybody else?
I'm sure some people don't like me. But they keep it to themselves. Even if they didn't, so what? Unless I did something to hurt them, I shouldn't be upset about it.
"how to observe "normal, healthy" people and learn from them."

Very true! I would go as far as emulating a person you admire due to their ability to interact with others. Deconstruct their interaction and look for the parts that can help you. One thing you will mostly notice is self confidence. People always feel good with people that project that. Make sure it's confidence not arrogance. It's a fine line.

And funnily enough one of the first things you'll notice is that confident people have the same awkward faux pas interactions that would keep you awake at night all the time - maybe even more often, since they aren't so hyper-alert analyzing the conversation. But they just don't care!

And because they don't get all shy and awkward when the awkward thing happens, because they don't make it awkward, the other person doesn't feel awkward either, and maybe at most both parties laugh about it for a moment, the conversation continues and life goes on and that night they sleep the peaceful sleep of the innocent. Or they lie awake worrying about some entirely different set of life problems, because we're all just doing our best and showing the best face we can.

So true, you remember your mistakes way more than anyone else's. Think about it. How many of other people's mistakes do you remember? Not many, if any. You just don't have the time and energy to focus on someone else life. It's hard enough to deal with yours. Be kind to yourself, note mistakes but don't obsess over them.
I would be very interested in any tips regarding improving one’s speech skills. I am way too prone to talking too fast to the point where I have sometimes trouble forming words and any like “I didn’t get that” makes me more anxious increasing my rate of mistakes.

But strangely it largely creeped up to me when I was around 20ish years old, while my teenage anxiety largely diminished.

I personally recommend joining a local Toastmasters club. They can help you with speed, tone, volume, etc. It can benefit your conversational speech as well, not only public speaking.
Or a local speech course. I took an eight-week course in public speaking in college, and it was probably the most useful course I took there. I can do talks in front of tech groups or hobby groups... not without some sweating, but still more effectively than most people.
Read and record yourself. Repeat until you learn what sounds good coming out of your mouth. Write at the same time. Think about your words. Savor both. It makes a world of difference. When you write read aloud.

Share. Communication of all kinds goes together. If you get this far you may also find that practicing your voice in speech and writing will improve your self confidence too.

Breathe in completely, breathe out completely, then breathe in just a little bit before speaking. The breathing out is the most important part.
There's a free short course on Udemy somewhere from Peter Barker who is a professional voice over artist. That's worth looking up - there's a section that covers correcting and improving a lot of common speech problems, from stuttering, talking too fast, mumbling, and how to improve the resonance of your voice. Might be worth a look.
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Very interesting name for a voice coach.
1) is huge. I really started coming out of my shell when I went traveling - here I was in a foreign country where nobody knew me and I'd never see any of these people ever again. So why not talk to the random person at the train station? Why not walk up and introduce myself to some strangers at the bar? And with that practice I started getting better at it, which made me more confident, which made me more comfortable with it, which made me better at it, and there we have that positive feedback loop.
Learning to small talk is one of the most valuable skills a person can have in life and will allow you to connect with more people than you thought possible.

It all starts with very basic cues and the great thing is you can practice each and every day.

Start off by simply looking at e.g. the cashier at the store and ask "how's your day going?", or make a small quip about the weather e.g. "it sure is cold today, can't wait for Spring!".

Make this a daily practice even when you aren't feeling comfortable. Most people are happy to respond to simple friendly gestures and you'll slowly build confidence in your ability to connect with others.

Practice, practice, practice.

- Extremely extroverted introvert.

The phrase “small talk“ pains me. I never ask a question for which I am not interested in the answer, and I think if you listen carefully before you say something about the weather you might hear something deep and genuine that you would have otherwise missed.

Now I usually do ask how the other person is, but I am always listening for the real answer. I never ask it without wanting to hear what they say. (And if I’m feeling bad or don’t want to hear their answer I do not ask at all.) Usually they give automatic responses, but if they don’t, I try to give them the respect of questioning or agreeing with them in a way that they know they were heard.

Salient point about listening/reading their response, another tool in the social/life tool belt.

Re: weather, its not really about that, it's just opening the door that more often than not leads to a pleasant, random conversation with a total stranger.

I believe the significance or relevance of the "weather topic" depends on location. There are some places where the weather never really changes, and is indeed unremarkable, like southern California. But some regions can have drastic changes in weather, and some places the weather can kill. For example in the midwest US the weather can go from blizzard conditions to sunny and warm in 24 hours or a strong storm can destroy crops and ruin livelyhoods for thousands of farms. In tornado alley a "pop up" severe thunderstorm can throw off tornadoes and level towns. As someone who's lost family members to tornadoes, the weather is a topic I'm interested in.
There's no such thing as "small talk".

All talk is significant.

If it is anything, "small talk" is talk that you don't mind other people hearing and joining. And if you think about that at a distance, it makes it very big talk indeed.

To me, "small talk" is mundane chit-chat that you do mostly to be polite or to break the ice. "Hi <neighbour>, weathers been awfully cold lately hasn't it? Yes, can't wait till summer. Did you watch the game yesterday? Anyway catch you later!" kind of things.
Yeah. It's small on that level.

But it's not small if that is the conversation that allows someone you both haven't yet met to feel at ease in joining in to chat with you. That makes it powerful, because it leads on to people introducing themselves, more common ground being found, etc.

Also, it might be the only kind of talk that can "break the ice" in the general case. I mean -- imagine replacing small talk with a deep question about politics or science or music theory. It couldn't work so well in general.

That is what I mean about its significance. Almost all of us exist solely because of small talk between our until-then-unknown-to-each-other parents, for example.

"Small" talk is the beginning of almost everything.

I see what you're saying. I agree, if it helps break the ice or is the "introduction" for further conversation, then it serves an important purpose. Even in the case of maintaining some kind of friendliness with a neighbour, that serves a purpose too, I suppose.
> I never ask a question for which I am not interested in the answer

Where I am, its common to say "how are you?" as a stand in for "hello", that is, without the expectation of an answer or even further conversation if you're just greeting someone in passing. Some time ago, I started making a point to actually respond and ask them how they are back, I often do this to cashiers in shops for example. For the most part, they seem to appreciate it. However, lately, I've been caught off guard a bit because there's one guy that works at my gym and he always greets me like that and out of habit, I stop, answer and ask him how he is, but he's not expecting further conversation since he was just expecting me to say "hi". Made for some awkward pauses until I adjusted my behavior to match his :)

> I never ask a question for which I am not interested in the answer

I also used to have this attitude, until I realized it was handicapping me. The point is to get a conversation going, and sometimes the way people are comfortable doing this is through the banal ritual of asking each other questions they don't really care about the answers for, and faking that they do care. It's illogical, but then again, so apparently is one's desire to just have a connection with somebody rather than nobody. Putting the pressure on yourself to only ask deep and genuine questions of people you don't even know is just going to result in you deciding you have nothing important enough to ask yet, and sitting in awkward silence, or never approaching someone at all. It's the conversational version of "the perfect is the enemy of the good."

I travel a lot for business and end up riding Uber a lot. I go out of my way to stroke up conversations with the Uber drivers. I ask them about their music. How long they have been in the city. Some spots to visit. How they like driving for Uber.

The last question sparks a lot of conversations. Many do it just as a side gig and for flexibility. It’s the only time that you get to talk to complete strangers while they are work for a prolong period of time.

I'm the same way and I've had some of the most amazing conversations of my life with Uber drivers!
If anyone here wants some real life training on social interaction, take a once or twice per week part-time cashier job at CVS or Walgreens. Don't go for Walmart / Target, or a smaller convenience store. The middle ground of CVS and Walgreens is ideal, it has just enough traffic, but not too much. Do that for six months or so, and engage the customers sincerely. You'll have a couple hundred opportunities per week to talk to strangers and you'll get paid for it; they'll overwhelmingly be nice, older women customers, and many will appreciate the small talk.

You'll deal with shoplifters (confrontation). You'll deal with people that are upset and or having a bad day. You'll deal with mean customers occasionally. You'll deal with obnoxious coupon types that will drive you crazy. 97% of the customers will be pleasant, and in a slight hurry. You'll help solve their problems. You'll deal with communication challenges from time to time (slurred speech, health issues, different accents, etc). You'll interact with customers from a very wide variety of socio-economic backgrounds (from poor EBT card users to rich people, from teens to grandparents). So you'll see a broad spectrum of social interaction, in a quite safe environment overall.

One could take a paid phone-help job (support line of one type or another) to chat with lots of people, however the additional nice thing about the cashier job is that it's in-person. You also have a counter separating you from the customers (a bit of a shield for some introverts), and other employees in the store to back you up if anything unusual happens. The part-time cashier job is also not overly important to the store, so if you're working only one or two days per week you won't have very many other tasks put on your shoulders (which full-time employees will have).

Social graces is like a muscle. And like human muscles, it atrophies with lack of use.

So thrust yourself into every social interaction you can and watch yourself get better at it.

It's pretty simple, don't overthink.