Suicidal and depressed 55 yr old ex radio announcer homeless
Terry Foxx 55 yr old ex radio announcer homeless, Don't have a pot to pee in or a window to throw it out of. everyone seems to think people with mental illness are crazy. We're not crazy, we're just trying to stop us from thinking we are.being depressed & thinking about suicide everyday. Hearing a voice that tell me I belong on another planet,where you receive compassion and care,Tired of being call a bum, old fart or your days are numbered.I've just had enough feeling my time is up.nobody cares about second chance or the homeless, I don't wanna tragic death, I prefer taking sleeping pills and just never wake up.the world would be a better place without me. Ps Living in a world where there are more animals shelter than homeless shelter. hopfully he can get help before and not afterwards
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[ 3.9 ms ] story [ 58.5 ms ] thread> Based on currently available numbers, there are about 31 vacant housing units for every homeless person in the U.S.
The most recent numbers are 15,185,000 vacant housing units (Q3 2021)[2] and 580,466 homeless people (January 2020),[3] which makes the current ratio 26.2 vacant housing units per homeless person in the U.S.
If you want to go by year-round vacant housing units, that number drops to 11,671,000, and the ratio becomes 20.1. For year-round vacant housing units held off-market, it's 7,008,000 and 12.1.
Though the numbers are different, it's pretty clear that there are many times more vacant homes than homeless people in the U.S.
[1] https://checkyourfact.com/2019/12/24/fact-check-633000-homel...
[2] https://www.census.gov/housing/hvs/files/currenthvspress.pdf (PDF, page 5)
[3] https://endhomelessness.org/homelessness-in-america/homeless...
If you are already on the edge any little thing can tip you over and in this country, the rules about needing a mailing address, phone number etc can really slow down the recovery process. I spent a month with a family member I despise, then got a job with room/board included and then moved out of state. Sometimes starting over requires big moves. I had to eat a massive dead crow...but in the end I suppose it was worth it.
I know I'm just some random person on the internet, but that's at least 1 person that thinks you have value :)
Do yourself a favour and use your voice for what it has been good at - talking to people. Give them a call. It really does get better.
catch up with old friends and family if you can.
start small. do something to improve your life every day. don’t let upsets keep you down.
make goals. small goals.
At my lowest I was trying to drink myself to death. I wasn't quite homeless thanks to the support of family and friends, but weeks away if I didn't make changes. It took me a couple of years to pull myself out of that... You said something I relate to and still struggle with to some extent, "the world would be a better place without me". At my lowest I said this to myself constantly. I hurt so many people and offered so little value to the world that I knew objectively the world was better off without me. Those who told me I had value were clearly lying, although looking back I guess it was a nice lie they were trying to convince me of... If you're like me I think maybe the first step to get better is to ask yourself how you can bring some value to the world again? This can be as simple as feeding squirrels in the park or picking up litter from the streets, but you first need to give yourself purpose and a justification for living. If you can remove that thought telling you, "the world would be a better place without me" you'll find it's much easier to break any destructive cycles you may currently be in..
From there it's really just about taking small steps every day... Talking never helped me, but I'd be happy to talk more about your personal situation especially if there's something stopping you from finding a purpose and building your life back up. I know for some people there can be other factors at play which make recovery impossible. It's been 5 years now since my recovery and these days I'm quite content. It might also worth noting that I went from having practically nothing to being what most people would consider very wealthy in that 5 years. I'm saying this because if you told me this would have happened 5 years ago I would have put the probability of this being true at less than 0.01%. I'm not religious, but I do sometimes wonder if someone noticed that I'm trying to be better... Either way what matters is that things can improve.
If you want to talk, kypro2 [at]protonmail.com. If not, I really hope you figure things out.
If you're interested I found my post from 5 years ago btw, https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=13146741 I was drinking heavily at this point and I think the week before I wrote this my parents had to call an ambulance after they found me passed out in my house after drinking a couple of bottles of vodka... Things got far worse after this though. My girlfriend of several years left me some time in January and I became too depressed and wrapped up in self-hate to care to keep looking for a job. I just wanted it all to end.
it would be one thing if we all started out on the same foot but we don’t, some things in life are just easier because of your circumstances.
a lot of people seem to not want to realize their own privilege. which is fine but when it comes to judging others we really cannot use the same scale because we all start out off different.
even two siblings can start out different enough where one has a bad leg up in society and the other doesn’t. mental health plays a large role in all of this.